“Heavy mental…”

On Wednesday night we drove to the City to hear a lecture by Joseph LeDoux. Unlike some recent trips to Manhattan, everything just flowed…traffic was light; we parked on the street almost in front of our destination–the Tischman Auditorium at NYU’s Vanderbuilt Hall. LeDoux is a premier neuroscientist–his focus is on fear conditioning, the “synaptic [...]

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“Offering busyness…”

This morning I walk with my friend, Sunny. Even though it’s early, the heat is on–humid, soggy. Summer has arrived. As we turn away from the River and walk up hill, we come upon this small sculpture–this altar…taking time to pause…to look…to imagine. THE OLD POETS OF CHINA Wherever I am, the world comes after [...]

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Niggling Thoughts

Niggling thoughts are the ones that hiccup out loud in the circumspect library. Niggling thoughts chase the tail of that last sentence and never catch up Niggling thoughts whisper inaudibly when they interrupt… Niggling thoughts are the intermittent itch Under my scalp of incompletions. Niggling thoughts wake me up– like hives in my blood stream. [...]

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Tending to My Nervous System

Suddenly I know the secret of happiness and where to find it! But before I push off to swim toward that shore, I want one final glimpse of my old friends, Darkness and Despair. I want to say out loud, one last time, what doesn’t work, what has never worked, and, what will never work. [...]

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“Saturated with impulse…”

“What makes the engine go? Desire, desire, desire, The longing for the dance. stirs in the buried life… …Touch me remind me who I am.” STANLEY KUNITZ, Touch Me There is a way that my life assembles itself. I never really know the “next thing” until it becomes vaguely visible on the horizon. I often [...]

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